I have quit university in favor of working at the theater.

I have wanted to work at the theater since I was 13 but my father forbade me from doing so and as the child I was, I listened.
For the last few years, I kept doing what he told me to do.

I graduated from grade 13 and entered technical university. I said I wanted to study in an agricultural field since I couldn't enroll at a regular university, he said that's dirty work (I wanted to go into agricultural marketing though?) so I had to choose medical engineering.

For half a year, I struggled and tried to get through the classes without falling asleep out of boredom. But no matter how much I tried, I couldn't talk myself into this being an exciting major. This was just not how I envisioned myself in the future, me stuck at the desk, programming this and that.

As I could just not take it anymore, I decided to look for alternatives and I realized that I still wanted to stage work so I tried my luck and just sent an application. I just sent out one application and bet it all on it. Luck was on my side after all and I received a job offer.

Seeing my chance at getting a step closer to the dream I have had since I was a child, why would I keep on, trying to become an engineer?
Even if I did graduate and got a Bachelor's degree in medical engineering, for the love of god, I can't see myself ever working as an engineer.
Nowadays everyone enrolls at university, trying to get a degree and make bank. I have seen so many at university who wanted to become engineers or work in the science and technology field. All those people were dedicated, whereas I was lacking all motivation.

i just felt out of place.

So I took the offer. I will be in training for 3 years but if I can work behind the stage, I just can't think of it being a waste of time.
With my age, I obviously do feel rushed and just want to get through it faster but I cant see myself at the end of th road, regretting this choice.

Yet I have to listen to my father lecturing me about my choices.

He believes becoming an engineer is the ideal because why would one want to be less than that. He claims one should just fight for it but how are you going to fight for something you do not want? When you lack all the drive?

He claims it's ridiculous to want to do a job one likes, people should want to strive for more, should want to make bank.

It's sad to be honest.
I see him goint to his job every day and coming home, annoyed and complaining about his job and his co-workers and this is what I should work hard for?

Striving for a happy life is not something bad. I understand that money is important. I love money so I truly understand it.
But what's the point of earning money when you will curse at your entire life anyways.

I would rather make a tad bit less than wake up to go to a job that will make me want to end my own self.

And knowing I won't have take a seat in that awful lecture hall, having to listen to someone speaking about imaginary numbers again, just makes me less suidical to be honest.

I will get through the next three years, work hard to get good grades and once I am done, I am one step closer to my dream.